Letters for Mavis Nyein Su Thar

 Dear Mavis, My heart broke the moment I saw your tears. Tears I caused because I was too selfish with you. I wanted all of you, always, in every way, and I let that want cloud my love. I didn’t mean to hurt you, not ever, but in trying to keep you close, I pushed too hard. I’ve been thinking about the moment you cried...How your eyes, always so full of warmth and light, filled with pain because of me. That image plays over in my mind, and it breaks something in me every single time. I never wanted to be the reason for your sadness. I never wanted my love to be something that hurt you. But I see now that I was being selfish. I was so caught up in wanting you, your time, your attention, your presence. All I wanted is of you, every piece, all the time, and in that want, I didn’t leave room for your space, your freedom, or your own heart to breathe. And that was wrong. I didn’t mean to make you feel trapped. I didn’t realize that my love, when wrapped in fear and possessiveness, cou...

 Dear Mavis,  You found me where the silence grew, In shadows I had wandered through. But with your voice, the world returned, And in your eyes, the sunrise burned. You touched the part I thought was gone, A faded dream, a muted song. Yet now my chest beats loud and true. This rhythm wakes because of you. You stir the sky inside my soul, Fill empty spaces, make me whole. Like springtime breaking winter’s chain, Then you came in You make me feel alive again. Not just to breathe, To taste, to hope, to dance, to see. To experience what happiness is once again. And I lived again. Love, B

Dear Mavis, Thank you for spending the valentine's day with me. I love you and I've grown to love you even more so, though I have not told you about it yet. I know you might some doubts about my actual feelings for you or you be insecure about me leaving you any time soon but you got no idea that you shouldn't even be feeling that way. I will not be leaving you anytime soon or anytime at all because the fact is, I've always chosen you & I wish to spend my entire life with you. You always has been my dream, my future & my final hope.  Don't worry about it so much silly girl, B